As far as i know myself.. i am one of those people who let things run things..
Never been the change agent kinds.. never wanted to change much things in life..
Things occurred to me only when they hit me.. and thats how its always been for me.
In quest of sorting things.. i have messed up ..
In quest of mending things.. i have goofed up..
I sometimes think i am a fucking wise ass.. capable of pulling off everything under the sky(which i m not denying, its so freaking true) but boss.. i am a human at the end of the day.. i get distracted.. i get confused.. i get lazy a LOT.. and yes ! i Fuck up .. some times... I Fuck up Huge !!
Its one of those days .. or one of those times which hit u in a span of 3-4 years.. when u question your actions in the past 5 years.. n sit back n think.. n try and conclude..
If you can make sense outa your past actions and current scenarios, Great !
If you are able to put the pieces together , Awesome !
If you are not.. then maybe its not the right time.. or maybe it wasnt meant to come together.
Past few months have been crucial for me...
made me make an attempt to get back to me.. me the my pure self.. which was so covered in dust...
my inclination towards music, my specific bands which made all the sense in this world to me, my fav music artists, few authors i studied.. with whom i could relate to.. help discover myself..
few things i loved doing as a child-
1. listening to music
2. painting/ sketching
3. writing
4. plain simple loving n living..
that s how simple it used to be.. day began with bon jovi.. ended with dire straits or pink floyd..
life had a meaning to it.. people in my life were important, they meant something to me.. today also most of my old friends hold most meaning in my life...
tonight i feel so small in front of life.. in front of this cosmic theater, feel so small to realize that how so ever planed you go.. how so ever a controlled experiment rather social experiment you carry on.. your hypothesis and conclusion might never match..
right now if someone would ask to wish to relive, i would relive-
1. any one psychology lecture from 3rd yr
2. one evening frm sec 15, chd
3. one night frm my last place in chd, sec 36
4. one evening at senapati bhawan(TA Mess), jpr
5. one evening at the chinkara institute, jpr
6. a day in IIS (hmm.. on 2nd thoughts half day in IIS) [even better th day i got suspended along with a few batch mates]
7. one day with dewnie in jpr, ambabari house
8. one evening , cycling on the streets of pratap lines, jpr
9. a day with awesome friends(ananya, gargi, suchi, kiddo, chinkx, manas, mihir, raja, sony , neha, shruti n plenty more...)
10. one day in AWHO, jpr
I guess one day will come when i will glorify my past 3 years spent in noida too..
n ill make a wish list of re living this night.. n im sure .. cuz its a thumb rule..
what goes around-- comes around..
Recommended song-
Shine on you crazy diamond- Pink floyd
"Remember when you were young, you shone like the sun
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Now there's a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky
Shine on you crazy diamond."
